Three-time inductee to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame Eric Clapton‘s daughter, Ruth Clapton shared a post on her official Instagram page and opened up about her emotions to her fans after her divorce.

As many of you know, Ruth Clapton had a happy marriage with Dean Bartlett and the couple welcomed their first child back in 2013, whom they named Isaac Eric Owen. Three years later, in March 2016, they had another son named Theodore Ivan Bartlett.

Their relationship seemed almost perfect on Ruth Clapton’s social media accounts with beautiful family pictures taken during their vacations. Also, the gorgeous couple selfies led Ruth’s fans to think both Ruth and Dean were happily married.

However, the reality appeared to be different than Instagram posts as Ruth Clapton shared a post a month ago announcing their divorce. While Ruth is known for keeping her personal life private, she stated that the last few months have been difficult for her and the couple made the hard decision to get a divorce.

After the heartbreaking news, Ruth has been quite on her official Instagram page with only a few posts to celebrate a friend’s birthday and to show their Christmas tree with her lovely children. Fans have been worried about her emotional state since she did not share her feelings after the divorce.

Yet, Ruth Clapton recently shared a post on her official Instagram page opening up about her emotions after having a separated family, especially for Christmas which apparently she is not ready for. Ruth stated that despite the fact she stays positive in her life, she does not manage to see the good side during these days.

Ruth also opened up about being a parent and stated that she has to dig deeper to find the last bit of energy in her for her children despite the need to sit in her home alone and be sad. However, towards the ending of her caption, Ruth showed her positivity by stressing that her situation will pass.

Here is how Ruth described her state of mind at the moment:

“Today I am like this river, completely overwhelmed with the stress and anguish of this year and the next few weeks ahead. I had a plan and that has now completely been wiped away and whilst I understand why it doesn’t change the fact that it’s still really upsetting.

I am in no way ready for Christmas this year, mentally or logistically and it will be a very different one for my family, very separated and disjointed and I was all set to take comfort within my immediate family’s arms to compensate for that. Alas, it is not to be, and where I am normally the kind of person who would try to see the positive I just can’t today.

Clapton continued:

I just want to sit in my house and be sad on my own but I can’t do that, so off to pick up my kids from their Dad I go and hopefully they will give me the motivation I need to get into some sort of festive mood.

Being a parent really does mean that even when you know you’ve got nothing left to give you have to dig deep and find the very last bit of energy you have left for them and I will do it. Sending love and light to everyone out there today who woke up this morning feeling completely helpless within their current situation. This too shall pass.

You can see the Instagram post below.