The murderer of John Lennon finally broke his silence to parole officers. He apologized to  the widow of the co-founder and rhythm guitarist of The Beatles, Yoko Ono, and opened up about the crime after years.

In 1980, Mark David Chapman killed Lennon outside the Dakota apartment building in Manhattan, only because he was angry about how famous he was. He has been locked up since then. Throughout these years he applied for parole 11 times and all of them were denied.

During his last conversation with the parole officers, he admitted he deserves a death penalty and there was no sane motive to kill Lennon.

Here is what he said:

“I just want to reiterate that I’m sorry for my crime. I have no excuse. This was for self-glory. I think it’s the worst crime that there could be to do something to someone that’s innocent.”

He was extremely famous. I didn’t kill him because of his character or the kind of man he was. He was a family man. He was an icon. He was someone that spoke of things that now we can speak of and it’s great.”

Chapman apologized to Lennon’s family, and finally shared how he feels about his crime and why he did in the first place. He also admitted that he thinks about the incident all the time.

And here is the rest of the statement of Chapman:

“I want to add that and emphasize that greatly. It was an extremely selfish act. I’m sorry for the pain that I caused to her (Ono). I think about it all of the time.”

The board stated that Chapman is now a clerk in a restricted area of the prison. He behaved and did not have an infraction since 1994 according to the board. Chapman also described himself as someone deeply religious and a devoted Christian now.

Chapman also was asked if justice had been served. He stated he deserves a death penalty following the killing.

He added this:

“When you knowingly plot someone’s murder and know it’s wrong and you do it for yourself, that’s a death penalty right there in my opinion.

I know my thoughts. They were not thinking of him at all, his wife, his child, the fans, nobody. I was just thinking of me. That deserves a death penalty.

He was a human being and I knew I was going to kill him. That alone says you deserve nothing and if the law and you choose to leave me in here for the rest of my life, I have no complaint whatsoever.”

The New York State Department of Corrections and Community Supervision board found Chapman’s statement ‘infamy brings you glory‘ disturbing. Chapman will be eligible for parole in two years.

You can reach the source of the statement here.