Mötley Crüe’s iconic and well-known member, Nikki Sixx posted a really emotional and touching photo of his mother, and penned a heartbreaking letter about her on his official and verified Instagram page.

Actually, he wrote that letter a year ago but some reason he reposted it again on his social media accounts and his Instagram story.

As you will see below, Nikki Sixx admitted that after those many years, he still can not decide what to think and feel about her.

Here is that touching letter:

“Maybe 1962-63… I sometimes feel deep pain knowing that this woman and I never ever really connected. Abandonment is a bitch. Maybe she loved me but I never knew. All I have are fragile memories and resentment. Between my dad that left at 3 and her, I felt like a worthless piece of trash ( look up Primal Scream lyrics ). All I ever wanted was to be a better man than my dad and show my kids, unconditional love, unlike my mom.

I guess this an overshare on this plastic platform called social media where everything is sparkly shiny and new but that’s who I am as an artist. I speak my truth and for the underdogs. In a sick way, my sorrow and anger have given many people joy…My joy comes from my family. I could and never have cared about being a rocker-star or rich. Ironically I became both but not without scars…

I am grateful I finally found peace. If you suffer I pray the same for you but it takes work. Odd question. So we look alike? I have no memories of her face so this is all I have.”

You can see the photo right below.

View this post on Instagram

Maybe 1962-63…..I sometimes feel deep pain knowing that this woman and me never ever really connected.Abandonment is a bitch. Maybe she loved me but I never knew.All I have are fragile memories and resentment. Between my dad that left at 3 and her I felt like a worthless piece of trash ( look up Primal Scream lyrics ). All I ever wanted was to be a better man than my dad and show my kids unconditional love unlike my mom.I guess this an over share on this plastic platform called social media where everything is sparkly shiny and new but that’s who I am as an artist.I speak my truth and for the underdogs.In a sick way my sorrow and anger has given many people joy…My joy comes from my family. I could and never have cared about being a rocker-star or rich. Ironically I became both but not without scars….I am grateful I finally found peace. If you suffer I pray the same for you but it takes work. Odd question. So we look alike? I have no memories of her face so this is all I have.

A post shared by Nikki Sixx (@nikkisixxpixx) on